Baby stitch ain't looking at me. He's sitting on my tray, staring in blank space...

It's just 12 more days till I fly to Cambodia! It's just next SUNDAY @ 4am! Totally unreal as it is. I'm getting excited :] grins.

My Biology tutor said something similar yesterday and it got me thinking, again. It seems that I have lots of problem. For example, I 'hate' being compete at and you know I seldom use such strong words. Seriously, if I'm compete at, I would rather give up and let them have it, that's how I am. Not that right ain't it? It would take time, for me to workhard and start accepting, trying my best to not be like that. Another thing is my dislikeness to be with a lot of people. It's not that they are not to be trusted and share with, it's the process of getting together closer that's making me tired, and that's why I dislike it. I don't like pretense, idle talk and stuffs. You don't have to tell me it's wrong or too extreme, because I know! I'll just have to change myself there and tweak a little to suit the part. It all takes time, accepting and trying to be a newer person in that area, in that aspect. Now well, enough of my non-sensical rumblings because I guess most people wouldn't understand what I'm trying to convey. Haha, toodles!

This is a tough time. We all get stressed up by stuffs that meant so much to us yet doesn't work out smoothly. I mean seriously. Especially those who meant significantly to you yet disappoints. Being in such a position, I can finally comment that I understood how my friends felt, making note to my closest.

When people gets close to us, we all unknowingly places hopes and wishes for them. In hoping that they would not disappoint us on the fact that we creditted them so much. Yet, people somehow don't understand the rationale of doing so, particularly; the ones who had hopes placed on them. It's more than often, rather a load of burden that one has to shoulder. What can I say? I've been in those two positions before but somehow, couldn't make sense of it.